Worry

Tonight, I sit here, winding down from the day, reflecting on what was a pretty good day, until it was interrupted by an unnecessary phone call, and a stroll past my old home. Then I because agitated, upset and worried.

What's worrying me? It's not one thing. It's not one person. It's the fact that I am worrying. I am 28, once again living at my parents home, with no end in sight of that in the near future. But then when I do, will I have a job long enough to pay for the bills? Will I ever remarry? These thoughts and questions speed through my mind, and in an instant, I wake up where I am again.

I am trying to read the Bible and the Catechism within a year, and currently, I am in the Gospel According to Matthew.

God speaks to us. We might not hear a voice, but our eyes are the light to his word. I came across Matthew 6:26-34, I heard him speak to me.

"Look at the birds in the sky; they do not sow or reap, they gather nothing into barns, yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are not you more important than they? Can any of you by worrying add a single moment to your life-span? Why are you anxious about clothes? Learn from the way the wild flowers grow. They do not work or spin.  But I tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendor was clothed like one of them. If God so clothes the grass of the field, which grows today and is thrown into the oven tomorrow, will he not much more provide for you, O you of little faith? So do not worry and say, ‘What are we to eat?’ or ‘What are we to drink?’ or ‘What are we to wear?’ All these things the pagans seek. Your heavenly Father knows that you need them all. But seek first the kingdom (of God) and his righteousness, and all these things will be given you besides. Do not worry about tomorrow; tomorrow will take care of itself. Sufficient for a day is its own evil."


Imagine how well we would be if we lived like the birds. Completely care free. I do not think Jesus is saying for us to just throw all of our cares to the wind, but to live our lives without fear or worry, because, in the end, does it matter if you were a career doctor, pilot, construction worker or taxi cab driver? No. God will take care of us. All we have to do, is praise him and trust him!

My goal is to stop worrying - stop worrying about getting fired, if I will ever gain full independence again, if I will ever get married again. Because God will take care of it. It's time for me to put all my trust in him.

Do you?