I have my face buried in my hands. With a sigh, I think to myself, the thing's I've gone through, the events I'm going through, and the events I will go through. I like to have an optimistic outlook on life, but then sometimes, reality sets in. I have to bring up my thoughts to get them out, and decide how to deal with them.
I have a daughter, but I do not feel like a parent.
I have a life, but I do not feel like I am living.
I want to wake up, but I am not sleeping.
Wants are wants I know. But don't we all want - and desire something better? When will it happen? How will it happen?
My "job" or "mission" in life is to live a life that glorifies God. To spread His word. But God, throw me a bone. I'm going nuts down here.
So, buried in my sorrow and self pity, it's time to pull myself up and get going on this. I have to shake not only this attitude, but this mindset too.
I know I can, I know I will.
I am buried alive now, but I will rise. Just as Christ did, I will rise into a new life. It may take me more then three days, but it will happen.
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